Maybe I don't ever fully switch off, but I think the way I offset that is by splitting my time between film and music. I always want to challenge myself and grow, fail, self-flagellate, and then try again.
I want my music to be a contribution, and I want the people who love me on Earth and in Heaven to be proud of who I am, and I want to be proud of myself, and I don't want to look back and say, 'Oh God, why did I say that?'
To be honest, I never really considered myself to be too much of an actress. So, whenever I get the chance to do music, I'm always, like, just in it. It's like, 'Oh my God, I finally get to do this. I'm so happy.'
Even if a story has nothing to do with my life, if I can recognise something of myself in the character and think, 'Oh yeah, that's what I'd do...' Yeah, that's what I look for.
Growing up I really loved Mazzy Star, The Cranberries, Fiona Apple, Everything But The Girl. I listened to a lot of really random things too that I would find by myself. I would find Minnie Riperton albums that I would fall in love with, also, a lot of old country records.
I can no more reread my own books than I can watch old home movies or look at snapshots of myself as a child. I wind up sitting on the floor, paralyzed by grief and nostalgia.
I have this idea of myself that I decided when I was 12 about who I am and how I come across and what the world is like. And if I have changed or the world has changed, I don't even notice sometimes because I'm holding on to these old ideas. I am more confident - the music is proof. But I can see the change there much easier than I do as a human.
I intend to be making films until I'm an old lady. So, if God willing I get there, I need to create a paradigm for myself where I can make it regardless of whether or not they still like what I'm making.
I've shut myself inside these walls, and I'm going to be a very lonely old lady if I'm not careful.
I'm used to watching old movies of myself.
Old women especially are invisible. I have been to parties where no one knows who I am, so I am ignored until I introduce myself to someone picked at random. Immediately, word gets round, and I am surrounded by people who tell me they are my biggest fans.
My older brother and myself always played together in bands, but we never knew we would be professional musicians.
I like to describe myself as a proudly visible member of the most invisible segments of our society - older women.
I was always an Olsen. I never thought of myself as a Brady. I never actually wanted to be a Brady. I always preferred my own family to the Bradys.
I grew up never seeing myself on-screen, and it's really important to me to give people who look like me a chance to see themselves. I want to see myself as the hero of any story. I want to see myself save the world from the bomb.
When I watch myself on-screen, I always look for the flaws.
I'm the type of rapper - like, I'm never gonna let myself get washed up. I'm never gonna be in one area too much. That's why I never wanna move to Cali. Everybody's out in Cali.
My music - that's the one area I won't let myself be pushed around. But in other parts of my life, I'm a confused mess.
Oh, my God, I literally only have, like, one friend that I'm actually completely, like, myself with.
I just woke up one morning, and I painted my Maybach red - I wrapped it, matter of fact, red - and I thought, 'I might as well change my album to 'Still Brazy' 'cause I gotta be real with myself.'
