āϏāĻŦā§āϧāύ āĻĒā§āϤā§āϰ āĻŽā§āϰ, āĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āĻā§ā§ā§āĻ āĻŦā§āĻļāĻŋ āĻāĻļā§āĻŦāϰā§āϰ āϤā§āĻ āĻĨā§āĻā§ āϝāĻž āĻāĻāĻžāύ⧠āĻāĻ āύāĻžāĻļāĻĒāĻžāϤāĻŋ āĻāĻžāĻā§āϰ āĻŦāĻžāĻāĻžāύā§āĨ¤ āϏā§āĻĒā§āϰāĻā§āϰ āĻĢāϞāĻāĻžāϰ⧠āĻāĻāĻāĻžāύ⧠āĻāĻžāĻā§āϰāĻž āĻāύāϤ āϤā§āĻĒā§āϤ āĻāϰ āĻĒāϰāĻŋāĻŽāĻŋāϤ āϰāĻā§āϰ āĻŦāĻžāĻšāĻžāϰ⧠āĻāĻĻā§āĻāĻžāϏāĻŋāϤ; āĻŦāĻžāϰā§āϧāĻā§āϝāĻĒā§ā§āĻŋāϤ āĻšā§ā§ āϤāĻžāϰāĻž āϝā§āĻ āĻāĻžāĻāĻĻā§, āύā§āύāĻžāĻāϞ āύ⧠āĻā§āύā§, āϏā§āĻŽāϧā§āϰ āĻ
āϞāϏ āϏāĻŋāϰāĻžāĻĒā§ āĻ
āĻļā§āϰ⧠āĻāϰā§āĨ¤ âāĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻāϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻĨāĻžāĻāĻŋ āύāĻž āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰâ āϤāĻžāĻā§ āĻĻā§āĻā§ āĻŽāύ⧠āĻšāϤ⧠āĻŦā§āĻāĻžāύāĻž āύāĻžāĻāϰ, āĻā§āĻĒāĻāĻžāĻĒ āϏā§-āĻŦāĻŋāĻĻā§āĻļāĻŋ,āĻĒāĻĻā§āĻŽāĻĄāĻžāĻāĻāĻž āĻšāĻžāϤ⧠āύāĻŋā§ā§ āĻāϏā§āĻāĻŋāϞ āĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āĻĻā§ā§āĻžāϰā§; āĻāĻļā§āĻŦāϰā§āϰ āĻā§ā§āĻžāĻāĻā§āώā§, āĻāĻāϏā§āĻĢā§āϰāĻ āĻā§āĻā§āϰ āĻ
āϧāĻŋāĻ āĻāύāĻāύ⧠āϤāĻžāϰ āĻā§āĻā§ āĻā§āĻ āϰā§āĻā§ āĻā§ āĻšāϞ⧠āĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻā§ āĻāϰ⧠āĻŦā§āĻāĻžāĻ? āĻāĻŋāϞāĻžāĻŽ āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻāϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻĨāĻžāĻāĻŋāύāĻŋ āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰāĨ¤ āĻāϰ āĻāĻ āĻāύāĻžāĻŦāĻžāϰ⧠āĻļā§āϰāĻŽāĻļā§āϞ āϞā§āĻ, āĻāϰāĻž āĻāĻžāϰāĻž? āϤā§āϰ āĻāĻĨāĻž āĻŽāĻžāĻĨāĻžāĻŽā§āĻŖā§āĻĄā§ āĻāĻŋāĻā§āĻ āĻŦā§āĻāĻŋ āύāĻž: āĻļāĻŋāĻāĻŋā§ā§āĻāĻŋ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āϤā§āĻā§ āĻŦā§āϞāĻŋ; āϰā§āĻā§āĻāĻŋ āĻĒāĻžāĻāĻŋāϰ āύāĻžāĻŽāĻā§āϞāĻŋ āϝ⧠āĻā§āύ⧠āĻļāĻŋāĻļā§āϰ āĻŽāϤ⧠āϤā§āĻ āĻĻā§āĻāĻžāϤāĻŋ āĻāĻĻā§āϰ āϝāĻžāϰāĻž āĻĻā§āϰā§āĻ āĻĒāϰāĻŋāϝāĻžā§ā§āĨ¤ āĻāĻŋā§ āĻĨā§āĻā§ āĻĻā§āϰ⧠āĻāĻŋā§ā§ āϤā§āĻ āĻĢā§āϰ āĻšā§ā§ āϝāĻžāϰ⧠āĻā§āĻĒ âāĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻāϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻĨāĻžāĻāĻŋ āύāĻž āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰâ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āϝā§āĻ āĻāĻĨāĻž āĻŦāϞāĻŋ āĻŽā§āĻāĻāĻžāϰ āĻā§āύ āϤā§āϰ āĻŦāĻžāĻĒ? āĻāĻ āϤā§āϰ āĻŽāĻžāϞāĻžāĻŽāĻžāϞ, āĻāĻžāĻā§ āĻ āĻāϰāĻžāϤ āĻāϰ āĻāĻ āĻšāĻžāϤā§ā§āĻŋāĻāĻž āĻŦā§āĻā§āĻāĻŋāϰ āĻāĻĒāϰāĨ¤ āĻĻāĻŋāύ⧠āĻĻāĻŋāύ⧠āĻšā§ āĻŽāĻžāĻĒāĻž āĻāĻāĻāĻžāύ⧠āϤā§āϰ āĻ-āĻā§āĻŦāύ, āĻŽāĻžāĻĒāĻā§āĻ āύāĻŋā§ā§ āϤā§āĻ āĻāϏāĻŦāĻžāĻŦ āĻŦāĻžāύāĻžāϏ āϝā§āĻŽāύ; āĻāϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻĒāϤā§āύ⧠āĻšā§āύ āϤā§āĻā§ āĻĻā§āĻŦā§ āĻĒāĻžāĻ ; āĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰ āĻšāĻŦā§ āĻāϰ āĻšāĻŦā§ āĻā§āĻŦāϞāĻ āĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āĻāĻā§āĻā§āĻŽāϤ⧠āϝāĻĨāĻžāϤāĻĨāĻž āĻŦā§ā§ āĻāϞ⧠āĻŦā§ā§āĻžā§āĻž āĻŦāĻžāϤāĻžāϏ āĻĻāĻŋāϞāĻā§āĻļ āύāĻž āĻšāϞ⧠āĻāĻŋ āĻā§āĻ āĻāϞ⧠āϤāĻžāϰ āĻ
āύā§āϰā§āĻĒ? āĻāĻāĻ āĻŽāύ⧠āĻĒā§ā§, āϤā§āĻ āĻāĻŋā§ā§āĻāĻŋāϞāĻŋ āĻāϞāĻžāĻĒ āĻāĻŽāĻžāϤ⧠āĻĒāĻļāĻŽā§āϰ āĻāϞāĻāĻžāϞā§āϞāĻžāϧāĻžāϰ⧠āϝāϤ⧠āĻĒāĻŖā§āĻĄāĻŋāϤā§āϰ āϏāĻžāĻĨā§āĨ¤ āĻāĻžāύ⧠āĻāϞ⧠āĻļāĻšāϰā§āϰ āϤā§āĻŦā§āϰ āĻšāĻā§āĻāĻā§āϞ; āĻ-āĻ
āĻļā§āĻ āϝāύā§āϤā§āϰāĻāĻžāύāĻŋ āĻā§ āĻŦā§ā§ āĻŦā§ā§āĻžā§? âāϏ⧠āϤāĻžāϰ āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰ āĻāϰ āύ⧠āϏ⧠āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰâ āĻŽāĻžā§āĻŋā§ā§ āϏāĻŦā§āĻ āĻāϰ āĻĻā§āϰā§āϤ-āϤā§āĻŖ āĻāĻžāϞāĻŋāĻāĻž āĻŽāĻžā§āĻŋā§ā§ āĻĻā§āĻāĻŋ āĻāĻ āĻāĻāĻā§āĻŦāĻŋ āĻāĻžā§āĻž āĻāϏ⧠āĻĒā§ā§ āĻ āĻŽāĻžāύāĻŋāĻ, āĻāĻ āĻĒā§āĻā§ āϤā§āĻā§ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āϧāϰā§āĻāĻŋ āϰ⧠āĻāĻāĻž! āĻāĻŋāϞ⧠āύāĻž āύāĻŋāĻāĻā§ āĻā§āύ⧠āĻāĻŦāĻŋāϰāĻžāĻ āύāĻžā§āĻŋ āĻāĻžāĻāĻŦāĻžāϰ; āĻĄāĻžāĻāĻŦā§ āύāĻž āϤā§āĻā§ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻĒā§āϰāĻā§ āĻŦāϞ⧠āĻāϰ⧠āϏāĻŦā§āϧāύ āĻĒā§āϤā§āϰ āĻŽā§āϰ, āĻĻā§ āĻāĻŽāĻžā§ āϏāĻžā§āĻž! âāĻāĻŽāĻžāϰ āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āĻāϰ āĻāĻŽāĻŋ āύāĻ āϤ⧠āύāĻŋāĻā§āϰāĨ¤
This way of behaving, this way of feeling, so hysterical, so sad, when someone has died, I don't like at all and would like to avoid. It's not as if the whole thing has not happened before, it's not as if people have not been dying all along and each person left behind is the first person ever left behind in the world. What to make of it? Why canât everybody just get used to it? People are born and they just canât go on and on, but it is so hard, so hard for the people left behind; itâs so hard to see them go, as if it had never happened before, and so hard it could not happen to anyone else, no one but you could survive this kind of loss, seeing someone go, seeing them leave you behind; you don't want to go with them, you only don't want them to go.