Each moment, each person, is sacred and worthy of respect- especially you.
When you think this pain is all you deserve, you are right. You are the only one that can decide how long you will walk in hell.
If the entire world sought to make itself worthy of happiness rather than make itself happy, then the entire world would be happy.
Convince yourself everyday that you are worthy of a good life. Let go of stress, breathe. Stay positive, all is well.