At the evident risk of seeming ridiculous, I want to begin by saying that I have tried for much of my life to write as if I was composing my sentences to be read posthumously. I hope this isn't too melodramatic or self-centred a way of saying that I attempt to write as if I did not care what reviewers said, what peers thought, or what prevailing opinions may be.
Forget it. Never explain; never apologize. You can either write posthumously or you can't.
Writing is making sense of life. You work your whole life and perhaps you've made sense of one small area.