Iāve always seen this in you, ever since you were a little girl ā this hunger to love other people into their highest selves and itās what has made me irreversibly and just so forever in love with you.
Please⦠Whoever you are, whatever you are⦠I believe in you even though I donāt completely understand you. I feel you around me even though I canāt exactly describe what Iām feeling. Sometimes things happen to me and I know that youāre there and Iām humbled by the lack of coincidence that exists in the world. Whatever you want from me, itās yours ā just please help me. You know how I get when I lose control, and I find myself constantly being pulled back there these days.
I feel a resurgence of my 6-year-old self⦠that little warrior, goddess of a girl reminding me of who I was when I was little, before the world got its hands on me.
I know that this process of āme changing my lifeā doesnāt just end once I set fire to this list of things I hate about myself. Tonight isnāt as much of a new beginning as it is a violent end and I know the real work hasnāt even started yet.
Iām going to follow this invisible red thread until I find myself again⦠until I finally figure out⦠who Iām meant to be.
If ever I was running, it was towards you.
I love him in ways that I canāt explain to other people. They donāt understand⦠itās not their fault.
I really believe that there is an invisible red thread tied between him and me, and that it has stretched and tangled for years ā across oceans and lifetimes. I know that it wonāt break because our souls are tied.
I just want your voice aimed at me again. I want to absorb the direction of your eyesā¦
Everything hurts right now and nothing is helping because as the pain is getting worse ā so is the love.
I want you to trust yourself, baby. Love is all that matters and youāve always known that. Youāve known, since you were a very little girl, what your life is meant to be aboutā¦
I know that your soul is on life support and that you feel lost and like youāre completely spinning out of control, but youāre finding yourself ā here, tonight⦠even in this darkness.
Diversity of character is due to the unequal time given to values. Only through each other will we see the importance of the qualities we lack and our unfinished soul's potential.
Life has a tendency to provide a person with what they need in order to grow. Our beliefs, what we value in life, provide the roadmap for the type of life that we experience. A period of personal unhappiness reveals that our values are misplaced and we are on the wrong path. Unless a person changes their values and ideas, they will continue to experience discontentment.
At school I was a nuisance, for my father was now Chairman of our Continuation School Board, and I affected airs of near-equality with the teacher that must have galled her; I wanted to argue about everything, expand everything, and generally turn every class into a Socratic powwwow instead of getting on with the curriculum. Probably I made her nervous, as a pupil full of green, fermenting information is so well able to do. I have dealt with many innumerable variations of my younger self in classrooms since then, and have mentally apologized for my tiresomeness.
Empathy speaks to us in those silent moments, away from our wounded ego and our wondering heart, in those empty spaces where questions run riot like lost and rejected soldiers⦠it tells us that each soul is worthy, valued, loved and honoured and we only ever need to face our own shadows, our own pain⦠and to be our own mirror.
You cannot lose or choose to forget someone you loved Without first losing or denying a vital part of yourself We are all pieces of the same puzzle Connected by threads of love Each a mirror to what we hold onto And what we let go of