I just don't want to fail, to be honest.
The NRL is not an easy gig, but they have some good talent, some good youngsters coming through.
You always feel for your fellow players when they are going through tough times, losing and things like that.
If I could go back and change how I left the NRL, I would. My name will forever be tarnished but I wasn't the man I am now.
I've got to do everything extra to put myself in the best shape to get in the World Cup squad.
There was no way I was going to end up in the scrum when I came to rugby - you know, waste my pretty looks.