Fortunately, there is no perfect sadness and there is no perfect happiness, they do have some impurities.
Miracles do happen. In faith lies the power of spirituality
I am using the past tense because I have no idea about the present as I couldn't predict the future at that time in the past.
Don't create the illusion! You create it so carefully with your chosen material to console yourself with it afterwards. Remember how you used to be, you were all right, you were perfectly sound, you don't need anyone to survive. Where is your will? Where is that bright future you promised to fulfill?
Careers are source of power!
So you admit that you have changed!! I am fond of husbands who possess genuine love for their wives, and it doesn't change but to be sweeter, fiercer in, an unharmful, passionate way, and stronger with pure affection. Find me one who never changes but for much better versions of himself for a lifetime.