I can see now that it's the little things, the small efforts, that keep a relationship going. And I know now that too in some small measure I have the power to hurt him and also the power to make it better.
It's a known fact, that in life, you can't have everyhing. In my heart, I knew that I loved them both as much as it is possible to love two people at the same time. Conrad and I were linked, we would always be linked. That wasn't something I could do away with. And I know that now--that love isn't something you can erase--no matter how hard you try.